More Than Anything, I Want to Save You From Myself
Because love deserves more than what I can give.
I love looking at you, all I see is brilliance — your light, your warmth, the way your gentle hand touch me like I’m something precious. Yet deep inside, there’s this quiet war I’m fighting. A voice that whispers “I am not enough for you.”
You deserve the kind of love that doesn’t waver, a steady one like the ground beneath your feet — not like what we have. I am a storm, so unpredictable and restless, and I fear I’ll pull you under.
But despite the chaos, I see your patience and willingness to stay, and it humbles me. But I know love shouldn’t feel like endurance. You shouldn’t bear the weight of my brokenness.
“More than anything, I want to save you from myself.”
Because I know myself — my flaws, my fears, the part of me that is still scared at the thought of being truly seen. I love you enough to want you to be free from the cracks in me that might someday spill over into us.
But then there’s you. Always reminding me that love is not about perfection, that you see me — the real me — and you still stayed. I feel both the comfort and torment, because while I crave your love, I overthink if my love is enough to deserve you.
Maybe I’ll learn to believe in the faith you have in me. Maybe someday I’ll find the courage to meet you where you are. But until then know this; Every step I take away is not to push you out but to protect you from the storm in me.
And maybe, just maybe, If I learn to quiet the storm, I’ll finally be able to give you the love you deserve.
