When Love feels like a Crossroad
Lost in the Middle of Us
I’m standing on the crossroad, not knowing what decision to make because both paths seems equally unclear. On one side, I feel the comfort of us — the love I’ve known, the moments we’ve shared together, the person I once thought I couldn’t live without. On the other side, I can feel the weight of uncertainty, the uncomfortable feeling that maybe this isn’t where we supposed to be anymore.
It’s been bothering me, The heart that once set my heart on fire now flickers weakly, not even enough to keep me warm. I’ve tried everything to rekindle it, I tried to find meaning on the love that once felt so real, but now everything just feels… uncertain.
What if we’re not meant together for each other? What if I am just holding on to something that already slipped through my fingers — a love that already faded and is not coming back. I keep wondering if this is already the end or just a phase of our journey — a hard time that we can push through if we try harder.
But how will I know when it’s time to let go?
When should I stop trying and start moving on?
What if I leave and regret it?
What if I stay and lose myself?
I just don’t want to be the one who ends it without knowing for sure. How can I walk away from someone that still matters to me, Someone I once believed would be the person I’d spend my life with. But I also don’t want to continue holding onto something that doesn’t bring me joy, something that is draining me and leaving me questioning my worth.
It’s hard to make a decision, It is harder than I thought it would be. The truth is, I’m scared. I’m scared of being alone. scared of choosing the wrong choices, scared of losing you. But I’m also scared of staying in a situation that no longer feels right.
But for now, I don’t have any answer. I don’t know if the right choice is to end everything or if it is still worth holding on, All I can do is breath and give myself a time to think.
Maybe, in time, I’ll know which path to take. Maybe, the answers will come when I stopped forcing it. Until then, I’ll sit in this uncertainty, knowing that either way. I’m doing my best to figure it out.
